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By Neta Jackson and Dave Jackson
Copyright © 2013 by Dave Jackson and Neta Jackson
The last note of her signature song hung
in the cavernous space like the echo of a songbird … and Grace Meredith knew
she’d “stuck it.” Like those agile Olympic gymnasts on their flying dismounts from the uneven bars or balance beam. The final moment, a
breathless hush … and then beyond the lights, applause
thundering from the front-row seats clear up to the balcony.
In
spite of the sore throat she’d been battling all week.
“Thank
you,” she called out over the applause. “Thank you so much. I love you! God
loves you! And remember, you’re worth the wait!”
With
a smile, a wave, and a few kisses thrown to her excited fans, Grace backed
gracefully off the stage of the huge Nashville auditorium, her royal-blue
chiffon dress fluttering after her until the heavy, red stage curtains hid the audience
from sight.
“Grace!
That was awesome! They love ‘You Are Special to Me.’” A young African American
woman, clipboard and water bottle in hand, was the first to meet her backstage.
“Here’s your water … Do you want to go back to your dressing room before the meet
and greet? … You should rest first … Here, this way.”
Grace
nodded, grateful for her assistant’s firm grip on her elbow as they threaded
their way over electrical cords, around ladders and props, and down the stairs
to the dressing rooms. “Thanks, Sam,” she breathed, sinking into the padded
lounge chair. “I just need a few minutes.” Hopefully, merchandise sales in the
lobby were going well. It was going to be tight meeting all the expenses from
this New Year, New You tour—her first independent tour—but sales of
her new CD always seemed to skyrocket after that last song.
Sam
poured a cup of hot tea from a thermos into a mug and handed it to her. Grace
had been drinking honey-lemon tea and sucking Slippery Elm Lozenges like an
addict just to keep her throat from giving out. She sipped the hot, sweet
liquid, sighed, and closed her eyes.
Behind
closed lids, she heard Sam—Samantha Curtis, five years her junior, recent
graduate of Fisk University’s music program, and Grace’s personal assistant for
the past three tours—answer a knock and send whoever it was away. Thank God for Sam. The adrenaline rush of the concert was quickly
seeping out the bottom of her feet. If she stayed in the lounge chair much
longer, she’d lose whatever energy she had left. But she couldn’t stop yet. The
meet and greet was important. She’d promised to be there …
Swinging
her feet off the lounge chair, Grace sat up. “Uhhh,
let’s do it. Spritz me up, will you?”
Samantha
frowned. “You don’t need to rush. They can wait another five minutes … okay,
okay.” Grumbling under her breath, her assistant grabbed a hairbrush, gave
Grace’s long dark hair a quick brushing, and spritzed it with a styling gel.
“Just one more sec,” she murmured, freshening Grace’s cheeks with a flick of
powdered blush. “Okay, you’re good to go.”
Grace
caught a glimpse of the two of them in the dressing room mirror as Sam ushered
her out the door and smiled at the contrasts. Her own pale face and amber eyes,
perked up with artfully applied eyeliner and peachy makeup, were framed by
layered lengths of rich brunette hair creating a casual shag that hung past her shoulders. Samantha had honey-brown skin, large dark
eyes, and tiny black twists all over her head. She looked “cute as a button,”
as Grace’s mother would say.
But
looks weren’t the only differences between them. Samantha had the more outgoing
personality, the chutzpah Grace wished she could muster in everyday life. Only
when she walked onto the stage did Grace feel the certainty, the boldness, that
enabled her to “sing her guts out”—as one reviewer had described her
performance—and speak confidently to her thousands of young fans about
the virtues of waiting till marriage for physical intimacy.
She
was at home on the stage—and at
the meet and greet time she always scheduled
afterward. Like now, as twenty randomly selected fans gathered in a lounge to
meet their favorite contemporary Christian music artist. Grace took time to
speak to each one, asking about school or friends or favorite activities. And
answering the inevitable question asked by her female fans, usually accompanied
by self-conscious giggles: “Miss Grace, do you have a picture of your fiancé?”
To which she happily showed a little “brag book” of photos of Roger Baldwin,
the love of her life, including pictures of the two of them, laughing, holding hands—one
of which also included Oreo, her black-and-white cat, cuddled in her arms. Prodded
by starry-eyed teenagers, she would then make a show of modeling the silver
princess-cut diamond engagement ring with the tiny rubies Roger had slipped on
her finger the previous year.
“I
love your song!” … “Can my friend take our picture?” … “Are you going to sing
at your own wedding?” Grace laughed at the fun questions, ready with easy
banter.
But
sometimes the comments got personal. “I want to be just like you,” one teary
girl whispered. “I’m going to wait to have sex until I get married too. Thank
you.”
Grace
cleared her throat. That “just like you” thing always made her uncomfortable.
She opened her mouth to say, “Oh, sweetheart, don’t be like anybody else, just
be yourself”—but the girl had already scurried away. Grace swallowed the
words and turned to the next fan eagerly waving a CD for her to sign.
As
the room emptied, Grace realized just how tired she was. It had been a
particularly grueling tour—nearly four weeks through six southern states.
Many of the concerts had been scheduled back to back, which meant travelling at
night in a chartered tour bus with her small band of dedicated musicians,
singing to packed houses four or five times a week—and that wasn’t
counting the Sunday morning performances in various churches. Touring had
always been exhausting, but without the support of a record label, she was
doing twice the work, and feeling every bit of it at the end of the day.
Hopefully
the band had already broken down the set and was loading the tour bus so they
could get on the road soon. They were heading for Memphis tonight, where she
and Sam would be able to stay in a hotel. Just two more concerts left in her
New Year, New You January tour, and then home to Chicago for a much-needed
break.
And to see Roger. She could hardly wait.
Half
an hour later, Grace collapsed on the queen-size bed in the private compartment
at the back of the tour bus and took out her cell phone. Roger usually waited
up for her call, though sometimes it went to voice mail and she had to wait
till the next day for his return call. Like last night. There’d been no answer,
and she hadn’t heard from him today either. He must’ve had a busy day at work …
though she wasn’t sure why a financial consultant with a prestigious Chicago
firm couldn’t find ten minutes to return her call.
She
tried to ignore the laughter and joking going on in the rest of the tour bus as
the phone rang in her ear. The band was letting off some steam. They’d settle
down as soon as the bus got on the highway—
“Hey
there, Grace.” Roger!
“Hi,
honey! I’m so glad I got you tonight. Missed you last night.”
“I
know. Sorry about that. I had some international calls …”
Yeah, yeah. She
knew the song and dance. It had to do with time differences in China and India
and the Middle East or somewhere else on the other side of the world.
“I
was hoping you’d return my call today.” The moment she said it, Grace wished
she could take it back. She didn’t want to sound like a nag.
“Figured
you’d be busy getting ready for tonight’s concert, and I had back-to-back
meetings today.” He sounded matter-of-fact. “So how’d tonight’s concert go?
This was Nashville, right?”
Her
tone softened as she told him about the wonderful auditorium the sponsoring churches
had rented. “Some of the great Opryland stars have sung there,” she said with a
laugh. “I thought that would make me nervous, but it … I don’t know, it
inspired me. One of my best concerts, I think.”
No
response. “Roger? Are you still there?”
“Yes
… sorry. Uh, that’s great. Glad it was a good one.”
Was
she talking to the wall? Guess you had to be there. Which gave her an idea …
“Roger?
I’d really like you to hear one of my concerts from this tour. I think it’s my
best tour yet—which is saying something, since it’s the first one I’ve
done on my own. Is there any chance you could fly to Memphis for the final
concert on Saturday? I know it’s short notice, but it’s the weekend. If you
came, we could fly back to Chicago together on Sunday. Memphis is Sam’s
hometown—she’d probably love the chance to stay a few extra days once the
tour is done. It’d be just us—”
Beeping
in her ear cut her off.
“Grace?
Grace, I’m sorry. I’m getting a call from Beijing. I need to take it. Uh, look,
we’ll talk tomorrow night, okay? Sorry, darling, gotta go.”
The
line went dead. Grace held the phone out in front of her and just stared at it. Argh. Good thing she was going home
this weekend. She and Roger needed some real time together, not these
frustrating long-distance calls.
* * * *
Sam woke her up at eight the next morning. “Don’t know how
you do it,” Sam said, pushing the bus’s room-darkening shades up to reveal the parking lot of the Embassy Suites Hotel. “We got in at
four, and the band has already unloaded their equipment at the church. How do
you sleep through all that?”
Grace
didn’t answer. It had taken her an hour to fall asleep and she still felt
exhausted.
“I
checked us in already,” Sam went on, starting to gather articles of clothing
tossed here and there. “Thought you’d rather shower and dress in your hotel
room instead of here. I ordered breakfast to be sent up at nine, time to eat before
sound checks at ten. Management said we could use the side door, go right up to
our suite.” She held up a burgundy velour lounging set—pants and top.
“This okay for now?”
“Thanks.”
It came out as a croak.
“Uh-oh.”
Sam frowned. “We’ve got to take care of that voice. Two concerts to go before
it can take a vacation. I’ll fix a hot salt-water gargle …”
* * * *
By the time the taxi dropped them off at the church, Grace
was feeling better after a steamy shower, gargle, and a good breakfast. A
church staff person met them at the front door and ushered the two women into
the large sanctuary, where the band was tuning up their instruments on the wide
stage and Barry Fox, band manager and all-around sound technician, was standing
at the back, hands on hips, hollering, “Move that amp more to the right … no,
no, too far! Back six inches … okay!” He glanced at the two women. “Oh, hey,
Grace … Sam. Not quite ready for sound checks. Give us fifteen, okay?”
“No
hurry.” Grace smiled at the fiftysomething band manager,
already sporting a closely cropped salt-and-pepper beard to match his steel-gray
hair. “You ever get those guys to sleep last night?”
Barry
rolled his eyes. “Sometimes I feel like a glorified nanny to a bunch of twentysomethings. But we got a few hours … you?”
“Not
enough,” Samantha butted in. “She’s sleeping in the hotel tonight. And only
once through both sets this afternoon. Her voice is on the edge, and we don’t
want to push it over. Can we tell the guys to take the chord down at the end of
‘Pure Heart’ during practice instead of going up?”
Barry
chuckled. “Be my guest.” He gave Grace a playful poke as Sam hustled down the
carpeted aisle toward the stage. “Now she’s got the nanny thing down pat.”
Grace
laughed and dropped into a pew to wait until Barry was satisfied with amps,
plugs, wires, lights, and tune-ups—all the mysterious details that had to
be cared for before she stepped out on stage. How serendipitous that her Denver-based
booking agency—Bongo Booking—had rounded up this gem of a garage
band in Chicago, her hometown, and hired them to tour with her. No, that wasn’t
serendipity—it was a God-thing. Their sound and her voice had fit like
the proverbial hand in glove, and the guys were fun to work with too.
She
watched and listened, amused, as Petey, the
saxophonist, shaved head glistening, jammed with red-headed Alex and his electric guitar. Hefty Reno, the keyboardist, was still pushing
amplifiers around, while Nigel—ponytailed and tattooed—set up his
drums, and Zach, sporting his “African knots” hairstyle proudly, joined the
jammers on his electric bass.
Her
fingers itched to take out her cell and try Roger again before things got busy …
but she resisted. No, he’d promised they’d talk tonight. Maybe he could still get
a flight to Memphis tomorrow and take in her last concert.
“Grace!
We’re ready!” Barry called from the front.
She
smiled to herself as she headed down the aisle. Tomorrow, hopefully, she’d sing
for Roger too.
* * * *
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